Welcome into the mental world of a therapist and her English patient.
This is a project meant to reveal the fascinating mechanisms of the human mind. Here you will see raw pictures of life in the form of snippets from therapy sessions conducted online by Sophie, a therapist who does online counseling, a therapist whose job is her passion, her salvation, her ultimate drug: understanding beyond understanding of the human nature. This post was created at the request of her patient.
This is the story of a man, Mike.
Sanity is somehow mediocre; is the socially tolerated symptoms that makes an individual to stand out from the crowd. And you do want to be different, you do want to be YOU, with your unique reflections of the world, with your unique history, with your unique darkness and nobleness, don’t you?…
And since hypocrisy rules the world, including the world of psychology and psychotherapists, this blog offers you the unique insight into the finesse, awkwardness and same time wonder of interaction between 2 minds: one too aware of itself – the therapist, and one in search for balance, meaning, understanding, and somehow anesthesia from being human, all too human.
The art of living resides in the fine tuning between the wonder of being human and the scare of being human. Mike has embarked in saving himself from himself, he is on a quest of punishing and forgiving himself and the world, at times through unorthodox means.
As it is talking to a psychologist online. Not that he didn’t had the courage to find one with an expensive office on the streets of London, with the ever-present impressive library full of opus magnum of overrated psychologists as Freud and his accomplices.
It’s just that the anonymity of the addictive internet gave him the hope that he could speak his mind, his fears and vulnerabilities as he’s never done before, without having to perform, to convince or to protect the therapist, as he is doing with all other people from his life.
And this is what happened. Mike went to therapy. Online. At his request this blog was created to share his therapeutic experience with the world.
You will discover in this blog an uncensored sincerity which, in the end, is a cry – not for help, but for understanding, for being acknowledged for who or what he truly is: a human being with different faces, populated by contradictions and paradoxes, a highly appreciated professional by day, a cheating husband in between, a funny and weird patient by night, a soul in search for meaning ultimately, for magic in the life’s routine, for connection, understanding and acceptance.
Mike is a beautiful fraud, a celebration of reasonable madness dressed in kindness, with symptoms of excessive humanity and incapability of healthy selfishness.
Sexual inadequacy, delusions of selfishness, misdirected masochism, beautiful mind, feelings of unworthiness topped with a rich culture and exaggerated kindness to his mediocre peers – this is Mike, a man in search for redemption, a pleaser who feels guilty of being too much for himself, a human being who didn’t learned yet what to hold on to and what to let go to.
Sophie, me, his therapist, had the honor of dissecting his mind, his world and memories, playing different roles according to a scenario meant to deliver Mike from Mike. Will it succeed? Will it be an inspiring rescue mission? Or will it be just another enterprise meant to gloriously fail on the altar of humanity?
Stay close, you may discover things about yourself, things that you didn’t had the courage to admit, forces that drive you away from the healing communion with yourself.
Understanding brings healing, being known and acknowledged for who you truly are, no matter how contradictory or weird that may be, brings solace and acceptance.
Read, wonder, understand, accept and confess: you are human, all too human!…